Time is a funny thing to me. We sometimes want it to pass by quickly, but when it does, we nag about where it all went. I remember when my daughter was a newborn, I wanted her to walk. I wanted her to talk already. I wanted everything so quickly. They always say be careful what you wish for and it is true. She is growing so fast now. I just want her to pause a little, so she can give me more time to become a better person. So I can find my niche in life and to be able to succeed a little more for her.
Time doesn’t stop for anyone. One day you’re walking into the market buying pampers, the next day you’re watching your child compete in a track meet. I always envisioned parenthood as a sensei/grasshopper scenario. Truth is, parenthood is packed with lessons that consist of being taught by either the child or the parent.
Embry Ann is and will forever be my hero. I have reached dark times in my life in which I felt I would never get out of; but somehow this little, assertive, courageous girl managed to help me get through it all. I have lost hope in myself plenty of times when it comes to certain aspects of my life. However, giving up on myself is one thing, but giving up on her is another. I figured if I didn’t have motivation for myself then I would live for her and succeed for her.
Embry Ann has taught me that it is okay to fail. It is okay to make mistakes as long as I learn from them. I never thought it was possible to smile on my darkest days, until I had her. I thank her for making me the person I am today and for helping me overcome many milestones.
I am not certainly sure if Embry Ann will ever get the chance to see all my writing when she is older. If for some reason she comes across this post:
Thank you for being such a genuine individual and for loving me. I may not be the easiest person to deal with but love is real and it pushes you to do many amazing things. I hope I make you as proud as you make me. I love you Pocoyo, to the moon.